I had a perfectly lovely vacation this summer. I went with my two older sisters to Ohio. Jany and I were tag-a-longs as Judy traveled to visit her school-days chums. Those gracious women made us feel like part of the group. I restart this blog as a result of that vacation, and the encouraging words shared with me by our Hostess. When I confided, I thought I had a book in me... She said, "just start putting it down". Just start writing down your ideas, thoughts, memories and then someday, they might actually thread together... but at least I would have them written down.
Our hostess, Gay, is a talented, successful, perfectly lovely lady. I must say, I was a little intimidated, by her success, but kept telling myself, she came from Portales. She has the same red dirt between her toes as I do. So no matter the differences, we will have that in common. She inspires me. Not because of all the external things you may think. But because she shared with me that, she didn't get here, via a perfect life.
It may sound ridiculous to my friends. but I have always had an issue with feeling like I fit in. I have extensive experience in bull-shitting my way through a situation. To this day, I feel like I B.S.ed by way threw high school and college. Never bothering to do the work, or learn the information. I'm not proud of it. I just think it snow balls. You don't grasp something, and then you get behind... and no one realizes it. Perhaps the talents you develop to continue the charade are valuable.
I spent every summer from age 11 till I was grown, in Denver, Colorado. My older sister and her husband lived there, and took me off the parents hands. I don't know if it was or their benefit or mine. (Remind me to ask her how that came to be someday). Judy was SMART. She read books! But she wasn't just book smart, she was savy! I remember deciding at about 14, that I could just ACT like her, and maybe people would think I had what she had. And so began my acting career.
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